Target...it's not just for shopping anymore!

We got the call on Wednesday night. Zac was scheduled for a 3 p.m. surgery. He has never had a late surgery before. He's always been up first. A 3 p.m. surgery can eat up until 7:30 a.m. and then after that...nothing but clear liquids until 1 p.m. We had to be at the hospital at 1:45. Unfortunately, the no milk after 7:30 rule definitely tipped Zac off. He knew what was going down and kept saying "Josh..." and "bye-bye". He had a total meltdown and it was all I could do to throw everything I thought I needed for the hospital into a bag and put him in the car. So my friends...what do you do when you have almost 4 hours until you have to be at the hospital and you have to keep your child's mind off of food. You do what any quick-thinking woman would do...you head to Target. Yep...that's right. Target, the third happiest place on Earth (after Disneyland and Starbucks of course). I spent over 3 hours in Target, a lot of it in the toy aisle. It worked great to distract Zac and I even filled his prescription while I was there - they really should pay me for this free advertisment LOL.

When it was time to head to the hospital though, the fit started up again. When we got into the hospital room, it was unlike I had ever seen him before. You see, the wonderful thing about doing these surgeries so early is that these little ones won't remember much, if anything at all and usually, they don't have a clue what is happening. The trade off is...instead of getting easier each time, they get a little harder because children become more aware. Zac was screaming for his "jacket" and "hat" because to him that meant we were going bye-bye. The nurses were not shocked since they see this a lot I am sure, they kept asking me if I was okay and all I could think was..."do I have a choice??" Then it happened. I reached that point...that point where you can no longer hold back and I started to cry. I shut my eyes and said a short prayer for strength for me and peace for Zac. And it was answered with some anti-anxiety medication for Zac...and for me...God sent friends.

Just when I thought I reached the breaking point, there were Mim & Susan from Dr. Bauer's office there for nothing else but to give me support. I am sure that Christine had something to do with it because she was amazingly committed to making my birthday special. After Zac (and Tow Mater) went in for surgery. The nurses at pre-op presented me with a birthday brownie and Mim and Susan kept me distracted at the hospital cafeteria with great conversation and a bright pink and yellow box of chocolates. I am so grateful to those two women not only are they amazing medical professionals but they are phenomenal, compassionate ladies and I am so lucky to have them in my corner.

It seemed like only minutes after heading to the surgical waiting room that Dr. Bauer came in to tell me about Zac's surgery. Zac had a small skin tag removed from his right ear, removal of the rest of the two satellites on his left leg and two expanders placed. One expander on the top chest area that will hold 750cc of saline; One expander from the front, left abdomen diagonally across the side up to the shoulder that will hold 1000cc!! The biggest tissue expander we've had yet. We spent the night in the hospital because the surgery was so late in the day and had the same excellent care that I have come to expect from the hospital. While Zac stayed distracted watching Cars 2 and cuddling with Tow Mater and his musical seahorse, he managed to get the rest he needed and stayed comfortable. I even got my birthday cake - a very yummy mini-bunt cake with white frosting, sprinkles and an edible candle - courtesy of The Meltons ;)

We headed back to the hotel, took a nap and woke up to a flurry of snow!! Zac is resting well surrounded by a plethora of cars and watching Cars 2 on the iPad for the 15th time today. Please continue to pray that he has little pain and heals quickly. He is definitely vocalizing the pain more than he did previously...and that hurts mommy too. Thank you everyone for your overwhelming birthday wishes and prayers for Zac - that was the best birthday present ever!!!

I KEEM And Extreme Brain Freeze

Zac LOVES ice cream....or I KEEM as he calls it. There is something so joyful about watching him eat it. A simple pleasure that makes him so happy. Today I spent a wonderful day with my little man. We were able to make it in to see Dr. Bauer first thing in the morning which left us an entire day together. Dr. Bauer is going to do two tissue expanders this time. We have never had more than one... I am happy about that because it means we will produce more 'good' skin...and I am also a nervous wreck...because that means I will have to fill TWO expanders. Well...truth be told...I was a nervous wreck long before the moment Dr. B told me Zac would have two expanders.

Though none of Zac's surgeries have been easy to prepare for. I am not talking about the packing of course, but of the mental olympics that start to occur in your mind about two weeks prior. Don't let him get sick...make sure you get the pre-op physical done...what's it going to be like this time...where will the expanders go...oh my gosh, was that a sneeze?...what will be his reaction to the hospital...will I be able to hold it together... Well, you get the picture. Our two week sprint started with a cold & congestion. Every cough, sneeze and snot filled Kleenex had me feeling more anxiety than you can imagine. I mean, really...you fully prepare for the travel and all of the things that go into scheduling the surgery only to have to cancel it because of illness!! Getting sick is NOT an option! Although it has been down to the wire, Zac has finally recovered from his cold and is ready for his close-up tomorrow at 3:00, right after his friend Josh.

So...yes, I let Zac have I KEEM for lunch. What the heck! It's the small things in life that really matter. And no matter how prepared you think you are, in the end, you just have to trust that God has got your back.

Houston...We Have A Problem!

Friends, there is unfortunately something wrong with our PayPal account for the cookbooks. I will let you know when it is back up. Until then, if you would like to pay by check, please email me at amoller@cox.net and let me know how many you want and I will get you a total. Thank you for your support. I hope that this will not deter you from ordering and supporting Zac!

Now We're Cookin'

I am so happy to announce the newest edition to our family!  Zac's Treats & Zesty Eats....our collaborative cookbook to support the efforts to remove Zac's Giant Congenital Melanocytic Nevus.  As most of you may know...last January we started on quite a journey.  We traveled to Chicago for four separate surgeries in efforts to remove Zac's nevus with a series of tissue expansion.  Click here to start from the beginning of our journey and to learn about the process.  With the expenses we have incurred thus far - combined with what we face this year alone, we created this cookbook in an effort to help Zac get the care he needs.  I hope that you will consider purchasing a cookbook (or two...or three...) and that you will spread the word to your friends and family.  Not only does the purchase support a fantastic (and very adorable) cause, but spreading the word is also a great way to educate others on this rare condition.  Cookbooks are $20 each plus $4 shipping & handling.  If you live locally, you can email me at amie@checkingbackwithzac.com and I will be happy to deliver yours to you.  Checks can be mailed to 1335 W. Medinah Ct. | Phoenix, AZ  85086 or you can easily use the PayPal button to the left.  Thank you for your support and prayers - it has meant the world to us.  Please pray for us as we continue our journey next Tuesday when we return to Chicago for Zac's next surgery on Thursday, March 1st.

A Hairy Situation

Here we are again...T-minus 4 weeks until we head back to Chicago for our next round of expansion.  Ugh.  It seems like we just got back from the Windy City and although it was beautiful with the orange trees and gentle weather - stepping into March weather...I am not looking forward to.  Especially since Punxsatawney Phil went and saw his shadow.  For Arizona that's just fine....don't threaten me with 6 more weeks of 70 degree weather LOL.  But for Chicago...ugh...better bundle up.  Ok, I admit it...it's not really the weather I'm dreading...the grey cloud that hangs over me has nothing to do with snow - it has everything to do with an angelic little blue-eyed sweetie who is so lovable he can break my heart with just one smile.


This will be the third round of expansion so I now know what to expect...right?  This IS true... if what to expect is to expect the unexpected.  I have enough good nevus mommy friends to know that every round is different.  Just when you think you have it mastered...a complication that you have never experienced comes right along and puts you in a tail spin - flipped ports, strange bacterial infections, stitches that just won't heal, tissue expanders that leak...yep.  Although, there's a world of variables that can go wrong - I believe that the outcome is SO RIGHT!  So...cross your fingers, here we go again...


I was giving Zac a bath last night - because I see Zac all the time, I think I am blind to some of the changes that happen.  He has gotten so many spots since he was born that I definitely don't count them anymore, I don't even really think I see them until someone starts to stare.  But, I happened to notice that Zac's back nevus has gotten SO HAIRY!!  I mean like...need a good mow hairy!  So, I gave him a good trim...but not before I snapped a picture for you.

Not sure if the picture actually does it justice but if you look closely, you can see a lot of hair, especially up on the right shoulder.  Just one more reason that keeps me going forward on our journey of removing his giant congenital melanocytic nevus.  Zac has had a lot of itching these past four months and a lot of severe dryness. Though I cover him in Aquaphor daily, it doesn't seem to totally get rid of the dryness, scales and flakes.  I have had to switch to a prescription hydrocortisone cream a couple times a week.  I hate to use something that's not over-the-counter, but the itching is simply too much.  Hopefully we will be able to get two tissue expanders in this time.  I am hoping for one in the upper right shoulder and one on the left back to continue what we've done on the last two rounds.  It's double the work...but double the reward.  


There is one silver lining this round.  This round will only be 10 weeks.  This is good and bad....good because at the 11 week mark, Zac tends to get really uncomfortable; bad because...well, every fill counts when you only have 10 weeks!  That means it is more important than ever to keep Zac healthy this round, ensuring that we are able to do EVERY fill to it's maximum amount!  Here we grow again!


Our cookbook, Zac's Treats & Zesty Eats is under production and on its way!!  Pre-order a cookbook today and help Zac get out of this hairy situation!

Support Zac in his journey to remove his GCMN and reduce his risk of melanoma!  If you need multiple cookbooks or more information, you can email me at amie@checkingbackwithzac.com.


  

New Beginnings....and Old Business

Happy New Year everyone!  I can't believe it's 2012!!  I would say 2011 went quick - but when I think back on how much we accomplished and went through this year...it seems like a lot shoved into a year ;).  Here's a recap:

• January - Our family traveled to Chicago for Zac's first surgery and were there for 14 days while we learned how to accomplish tissue expansion.  It was stinkin' cold!!!  Zac had one expander placed and a large excision of nevus from his lower back/butt.
• March - A great Nevus Outreach get-together where we met new nevus friends!!  After spending the night in the hospital for an infection, Zac, my Gramma and I headed back to Chicago for the removal of the expander.  We were so impressed by the amount of nevus Dr. Bauer was able to remove!  He also removed a raised, hairy satellite from Zac's forearm - it has since healed so well you can barely see the scar!
• May - Zac turned 1; Zoie turned 5 and we had a festive double birthday party at the house!  Zoie graduated from pre-school and participated and took 2nd in a Kiddeeokee contest for MIX 96.9! 
• June - I passed my CA Real Estate Test!!!  YEAY - I get to keep my job LOL!!!
• August - Back to Chicago for Zac's third surgery and second expander placement.  Dr. Bauer was also able to remove 80% of two very large satellites on Zac's left leg.  These are looking good - we hope to have the remainder removed with the next surgery in March.  And I can't forget about the AWESOME Unofficial Nevus Outreach get-together at the hotel where we met so many new families and even Dr. Bauer himselft showed up!!  My precious little girl started Kindergarten!!  After a rough start with a flipped port and a tissue expander fill gone wrong...we ended the second round of expansion smoothly.
• October - Along with my Gramma, we traveled back to Chicago for Zac's 4th surgery and removal of second tissue expander.  Results were good! 
•  November-December - Our household has been fighting reoccuring colds and a bout with the stomach flu but are determined to start 2012 healthy!

This year has been filled with ups and downs.  We have had a lot of successful surgeries and have been able to stay afloat with our expenses though they have been great.  I just found out that I am already in the hole for vacation time this coming year due to a miscalculation in my 2011 sick time.  This means that I will have even less 'paid' time off from work this coming year.  Ugh...  I know that if I put my faith in God, we will find a way to push forward with the next four surgeries and the costly travel expenses that go along with them.

In March, on my birthday no less, Zac will have his fifth surgery and begin his third round of tissue expansion.  It is the first time that I will be traveling to Chicago all by myself.  Please continue to pray for us in 2012.  Here's a year in pictures to show you how far Zac has come (and to remind me so I can muster the strenght to get through this year...)
Happy New Year, everyone!!

No Sweat...Literally...

Whew...I can't believe 11 weeks have come and gone since we left Chicago.  Today, I am sitting in the same hotel I was in August, getting ready for surgery #4 - the second round- tissue expander removal.  This past 11 weeks has been a whirlwind.  Adding a Kindergartner to our lives certainly made things more taxing.  Books to be read and homework to be done, nightly and lot's of little school stuff.  The greatest challenge being picking up two different kids at two different times in two different locations...guess we have been a little spoiled with our fabulous daytime caregiver Mrs. Bunch who has taken care of Zoie for the past 4 years and Zac since he was 10 weeks old.  So...I apologize for not keeping everyone as informed as they would've liked I simply have not had two extra minutes to rub together and my DVR proves it LOL.

Anywhoo...after an EXTREMELY rough start in this round of tissue expansion, I must say...it was all downhill from there.  After our fills gone awry, I was reluctant to try again but of course knew that this was just a horse I had to get back on.  My little angel Zoie said to me "Mommy, I believe in you...and I KNOW you can do Zac's fill...I just know you can."  Yes people...I have my very own personal Anthony Robbins...:)

Our next fill and every subsequent fill thereafter went wonderfully thanks to my bestie Candy and her terrific girls who were all to eager to keep Zac's attention while we did the fill.  With every fill we were able to get 90cc of saline in!  We are ready for tomorrow's removal surgery with 750cc of saline and lots of pretty new skin!!  Woo Hoo!!  I don't know what size bra he'd need if he needed one but it would be at least an E cup! :)

I will be so happy to have more of this back nevus removed.  There are many people that think that this surgery is for cosmetic purposes so for my friends and family - and anyone considering removal of their child's nevus I have just a few things to say about my opinion on the subject.
I will say that I believe each parent has the right to make choices for their child - this is purely MY opinion on this condition.

• Cancer risks - I mentioned before that Zac's nevus skin has potential cancer risks and even though the risk is small...how small is too small??  I mean...I don't know about you...but 1% is even too much for me.  If he got cancer after the removal, I would know that I had done everything I could and never regret not having done more.
• Fragility - This skin is extremely fragile.  There is little or no fat underneath it - the skin damages easily and takes great pains to heal.  I have heard it gets worse with age.
• Itching!  This skin can be VERY itchy!  Though Zac does not currently have any issues with itching - who wants to wait to find out if he will forever want to carry around a back scratcher.
• SWEAT!  No sweating!  Seriously guys...this skin does not sweat!!!  AND I live in the desert!!  For anyone w/ a child with a torso covering nevus...beware.  I just endured my first real Summer where Zac was in and out of the heat.  NEVER ONCE did I feel moisture on his torso.  His head, however, sweats profusely!  I must admit, living in the climate I do, this is the one that scares me the worst and the one I think is overlooked the most by most parents.  The body sweats to cool itself down and prevent overheating.  If it can't sweat you run the risk of seizures, heat stroke, etc.  Hyperthermia
• Hair...do I really need to go into more detail here...?  I trim the cute little nevus on his eyebrow every two weeks...  And I have heard from adult nevi wearers that over time...nevus hair on the scalp and other places can really thin...  great if it's on your back...not so much if it's on your head...
• Laser - well, laser only removes the pigment...this is what I think of when I think of the words "for cosmetic purposes".  Besides, do you know that laser generally requires more medication for pain management than Zac does with surgery?  I have never had to give him more than Motrin...really!
• Waiting until later...  There was about 3 seconds where I thought about leaving the nevus and letting Zac make his own decision later.  I suppose that someone older could have expansion surgeries done...but this is where I have the strongest feelings that what I am doing is 100% right for my child.  I have seen Zac carry around 750cc of saline, toddle, spin, laugh and enjoy life not even realizing that he has a special little bubble!  There have been no developmental delays - he started to crawl right before his first tissue expander was put in and started to walk right after the second one was put in.  I have seen him the day after removal surgery acting as if nothing ever happened!  His body adapts and heals better than it would at age 5...age 8 or age 16.  750cc of saline is going to cover most of his back...if he were older, wouldn't he need twice the amount to cover such a large space?   He is not aware of stares or questions and the BEST PART....by the time this is done...the only one who will remember it is ME!  I will remember every hospital stay, every injection, every stare, every comment, every explanation, every antibiotic, every dressing...the smell of anesthesia and that yellow gauze that makes me want to hurl.  Essentially, I feel that when this is all done, I will then have achieved what every parent wants to do for their child...take the pain for them.  I am so very thankful and blessed that Zac has the option for such a swift and wonderful removal and that we found Dr. Bauer and his wonderful team and I am going to wrap my arms around such a blessing and welcome it!   

When Zac is older and asks me what it was like going through this process...my reply will be... 'no sweat'.